Hard day

Having a massively hard day. I've been nervous and excited since we reduced my pain meds this week. Due to strange things going on in my body I seem to not be menopausal anymore. (Don't know why yet.) The pain is intense enough to keep me horizontal, so I've called the doc to get a prescription for the extra meds until this clears up. I feel like a failure for not being able to tough this out and for not working, even though I know I'm not. And though it seems biologically absurd, part of me wonders if the med change could have caused this (I've had minor amounts of bleeding which makes that seem unlikely.)

Giving myself some TLC and trying to stay positive.