phone woes part II

I went back to Boston and to the cellphone place. They confirmed what I already knew... the thing is fried. Fortunately for me its still under warranty so I get a new one. But unfortunately for me the store doesn't sell it so they are ordering it for me. They gave me a loaner eventhough they apparently aren't supposed to for wait times as short as mine... 7 days... but they did anyway which is good because I really have no other phone. No home phone, no office phone, nada.

So I am back in Boston.

I hate shopping at Macy's and I am never going to buy a wedding present ever again. Gift Certificates baby. Let the lovely couple deal with the insanity of shopping, of missing bar codes, rude people who don't speak english, and annoying sales people.

Oh and I am sick of cramps. Going on three weeks now when it comes to my period. Joy.

stuff work etc

So I am starting to realize the joys of commuting.... groan. I like Woods Hole I really do. Its just that I have taken the bus now 4 times this week. Its getting old.

As is having to own three of everything. Between my boyfriends place, my place and this place I need three hairdryers, three toothbrushes, three floofy bath things... the list goes on and on.

I am starting to feel like I have no home. I am rarely there. Its a mess in my room generally because I go there to get stuff, drop stuff off and sometimes sleep.

The place at WHOI needs some serious cleaning. The people there have obviously not cleaned the bathroom in a while. Living in two places means double the chores. Joy.

Its lonely there at night when I am there alone, and its kinda creepy. Its a big house with apts attached and every noise propagates through the whole thing. I will be happier when my friends are back in town and there sometimes.

I am sure I will get used to it soon. But I don't know how I am going to balance things. I need to get my room in shape and the laundry done. Somehow the prospect of doing that this weekend just makes me want to cry though. I wonder if this is PMS combined with too much sugar lately. I am a little down.

Maybe I can get the SO to at least keep me company while I organise and clean. I know... thrilling quality time.

I also need to find a way to become anal about neatness like he is. I don't have the time in the morning to look for things anymore. Not when I need to find clothes to take with me, books, pills, papers, laptop etc.

On that note I think I am going to buy myself the mega expensive mp3 player I want. Some people have been dissuading me on the basis that maybe I don't need to take my whole music collection with me everywhere.

But I live in three places. I hate deciding in the morning what I want to listen to for the next three days. So I am doing it. I am buying it. It may be foolish but I think it'll be great. Especially since I listen to music almost anytime I am walking or on public transport nowadays.

happy

Ok my mood has improved. So now happy thoughts.

Reading papers would be really bad but I am actually interested in the papers I am looking at. Also its nice to have an advisor who is a) email accessible b) actually gives me advice.

I am officeless for the moment, but even so all the people who are around my advisors office, where I have been camping out, have introduced themselves to me and chatted with me. There are still people on my floor of the ERL I haven't met and I worked there for a year and a half.

I like it here. I think I will continue to like it here. And although the commute is a bitch its nice to be in a place I like so much.

I know many of you have said that you don't want me to move and I have been saying "Oh, but it will only be once a week." Truthfully I think the minute my generals and MIT classes are over I will probably move for the most part. Will I be sad? Yes. Will it mean a better quality of life? Probably. It'd be nice to not be on the road so much. However, I would definately come to Boston to visit and go to games etc. And I am only an hour and a half away and you guys could come visit me. Plus, I would be living on the cape which makes visiting me more attractive.

However, my generals won't be for another year - year and a half. So no worries yet k?

ok more stuff

in case you are wondering I am waiting for my advisor to get here and talk to me.

Ok one last thing I wanted to share.

To illustrate why my last advisor and I did not get along:

The last day I was his official student he and I had a conversation, where he told me to stop trying to live a life while in grad school. He said that I would have plenty of time for that after my PhD. That these were the years for me to work into the night, on weekends, holidays etc.

I want to have a good work ethic, but I can't put my life on hold like that. I could get hit by a bus, or get really sick. My life has to keep going while I am finishing my degree. I have spent too much of my life in school to just keep waiting to enjoy myself until I am out. I intend to keep on living and having a good time. And work hard too... it can be done.

I am pretty sure my new advisor is cool with that philosophy. I am oh so happy to have made this switch. Commuting is a bitch but worthwhile.

Ok paper reading to do.

funny oh my god funny

http://somethingpositive.net/sp01122003.html

God have I felt like this before.

my head hurts

Ok am reading a scary paper about Electro-magnetic marine surveying methods. Its making my head hurt. Maxwell's equations are scary and I have a hard time reading about them when I have been away from them for a while. :( Sometimes I feel really stupid when studying this stuff. I wish I thought taking a break would help. You know what would really help is someone sitting down and discussing it with me. Somehow I doubt its going to happen. But you never know. Maybe if I ask my advisor he will explain it.

I think I need to reteach myself this every week until it sticks. Of course all my reference stuff is in Boston. Maybe I should hold off on reading it until then.