arachne8x | Programming..... argggh

Something that those of you who do not know me well should know about me (don't you just love convoluted sentences) is that I am an obsessive programmer. I have been known to deny myself food, sleep and even toilet when coding. This is why I am not a programmer anymore. My friends back home can tell you that when I am working on a project I talk about nothing else. Hell I barely even think about anything else. The reason is that programming is logical, knowable and understandable. Its the kind of thing where you ought to always be able to do whatever it is that you are trying to do. In the real world it does not work out this way.

There have been more times than I am willing to admit when to find a bug I commented out all of my code. And then uncommented it line by line running each time to try to find the bug, and never found the bug.

This is the most infuriating thing in the world to me. It makes me jumping up and down and screaming mad. I have been in the position where someone says to me please implement this in x language, even though I have never implemented anything like this and have never seen x language. My bosses usually don't know x language either so I spend lots of time online trying to get help.

So today I decided to try to adjust the convoluted interface for the inversion i am running so that I don't always have to baby sit it. Finally after a few hours of dinking around it looks like, cross your fingers, it might be working. I will know in a minute actually. The weird thing is that although while I was working on it I felt like shit and hated every freaking moment of it (there is nothing more annoying than having to work with other people's code) I now feel this immense sense of elation.

These horrendous ups and downs is why I chose a profeesion where hopefully I only have to code once in a while. I really do love it... but it makes my life miserable. In that sense I guess programming for me is like having a boyfriend (joke people... put down those pitch forks).

Looks like by the end of the day this is going to work thank god. Ok hopefully food will be forthcoming soo