Hmmmm.....
Jun. 17th, 2002 06:04 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
arachne8xLoving this new album by Sam Shepard... not the playwright the female vocalist. Its called Eighty Numbered Streets. It has kind of a country rock sound to it. Like Cowboy Mouth. Which I also love. And if you don't like Cowboy Mouth you can kiss my ass because they rule. Another cd of the week is the Nick Drake one I burned from a friend of mine.
Today I ripped a cd for the first time. According to a long time friend of mine this makes me a music pirate. He is going to call me lovely assistant Hook from now on instead of just lovely assistant. The rest of you may call me Hook as well. Or your excellency.. I answer to both.
In the end it seems to boil down to this anyway... music that you like, doing things you like (like going dancing), and spending time with people you like. Yesterday a girlfriend and I watched the godfather as I mentioned earlier. This morning I got a message from her saying how much that made her relax and what a great time she had. I was pleased because I had a great time too. And that is the magic moment. In the end if I were to die today I could say the following things: I know that I have shown love and care to my family, I know that I have inspired some to do something great, I know that I have helped some teach themselves. and I know that I have had many wonderful moments with friends. And to me that is exactly the same list I would like to have for my whole life. In the end it is those things that matter.
I would like to think that someday I might through my work help find wate for a third world country, or revolutionize the field of something, but in the end I will be happy to have been a good friend, a good daughter, and someone who makes a difference in even a small way in someone's life.
So stop the retching already. I know this is sappy. But sometimes sap is true. In my case it is right now.
I think I need to start being nicer to people. I started to imagine the other night what it would feel like if I was someone that I have been teasing and I even thought for a moment that I was serious. It would feel like shit. I don't ever mean the mean things I say but I don't think many people realize this. So I am going to try to be a little softer from now on. Help remind me guys.
Today I ripped a cd for the first time. According to a long time friend of mine this makes me a music pirate. He is going to call me lovely assistant Hook from now on instead of just lovely assistant. The rest of you may call me Hook as well. Or your excellency.. I answer to both.
In the end it seems to boil down to this anyway... music that you like, doing things you like (like going dancing), and spending time with people you like. Yesterday a girlfriend and I watched the godfather as I mentioned earlier. This morning I got a message from her saying how much that made her relax and what a great time she had. I was pleased because I had a great time too. And that is the magic moment. In the end if I were to die today I could say the following things: I know that I have shown love and care to my family, I know that I have inspired some to do something great, I know that I have helped some teach themselves. and I know that I have had many wonderful moments with friends. And to me that is exactly the same list I would like to have for my whole life. In the end it is those things that matter.
I would like to think that someday I might through my work help find wate for a third world country, or revolutionize the field of something, but in the end I will be happy to have been a good friend, a good daughter, and someone who makes a difference in even a small way in someone's life.
So stop the retching already. I know this is sappy. But sometimes sap is true. In my case it is right now.
I think I need to start being nicer to people. I started to imagine the other night what it would feel like if I was someone that I have been teasing and I even thought for a moment that I was serious. It would feel like shit. I don't ever mean the mean things I say but I don't think many people realize this. So I am going to try to be a little softer from now on. Help remind me guys.
