Happy feelings

Last night I went to church. As I sat in my seat and then later at the altar I felt very bad. I felt like I hadn't done anything for anyone but myself for quite a while. I have been going through a lot but I feel like I have been a little too selfish lately. I stood there and prayed that God would give me the energy to do something for others. And I gave thanks for all the great people in my life.

After service I hung out with the group at dinner and then went to a little shindig in honor of one of my friends there.

Then afterwards one of my friends shared something important with me. She is dating someone in our group.
I was so happy for her. I had always felt that this guy was someone who deserved someone great, and I always felt the same thing about her.

She is a very special person to me. Smart, funny and always supportive. When she tells me that things are going to work out well for me I truly believe her and she has helped me have the courage to do all kinds of things like apply to the joint program.

She is pretty as well. Maybe not conventionally but I have always found her beautiful. Unfortunately I do not think she feels that way. This may be why she is pretty inexperienced in romance. I don't know if she has ever really dated anyone... but I do remember earlier this year that she and another friend said they needed me to give them flirting lessons. Ha.

In any case as I expressed my joy at the news to her she said to me, "You know in a lot of ways I owe this to you."
"What?" I said.
"I feel like I have picked up some good attitudes from you. Things like expecting people to like me, feeling comfortable wearing cute clothes, and things like that."

Well I almost fell over. I couldn't believe what she said to me. If there had been one thing that I had hoped I could give to her it would be that. I have always wanted her to realize how beautiful and special she is.

It made me feel really good knowing I had done something like that for her. She is like I said very special to me and I am glad that I in some small way have helped her to like herself a little more. I am also glad that she may have found someone special. Now its in a fledgling stage right now so who knows what may happen but I am hopeful.

Weirdness

I just got done helping a friend edit an essay for his german class. Ew... It was about Kafka. Writing about Kafka in german is not easy. And for this poor guy its hard because he is trying to use things like dictionaries to help him say what he wants to. Here is a big hint, when writing in a foreign language never use a dictionary unless you actually know what the word means. Finding a word and using it correctly are two very different things especially in something like german. Its better to stick with what you know and only say the things you know how to say in my mind.

Anyway it was kinda fun being able to help someone.

Days like this need the blues

I wouldn't be able to get through this work today if it weren't for some jiving tunes. So thank you to my scruffy theater friend! Thanks for the blues brothers and big bad voodoo daddies. You are my hero.

I love music. It really helps make the day more fun. My bf noted the other day when we were driving somewhere "Man you really love to dance don't you" or something like that. Guess he really doesn't know that side of me as well since I have been injured during most of our relationship. But most chair and seat dancing does not require much legwork so :)

Now am listening to Squirrel Nut Zippers YAY!!!