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Oct. 4th, 2002
happy thoughts - sorta
Oct. 4th, 2002 12:34 pmThis morning my boyfriend woke up and looked at me and said "This is still so cool."
And I said "What is?"
And he said "Waking up next to a beautiful woman."
Well I think if I were more demure I would have blushed. I was certainly flattered. I hope these feelings will last for a while. I hope that it will still be so "cool."
But the cynic in me wonders if anything good can last.
I can't help it, everyone keeps telling me that I should stop overanalying things and just let go.
Whatever. Thats the harderst advice to follow for someone like me. I overanalyze everything.
But ok I will try. I have been trying and I will continue to do so.
I am happy. For once I have someone really special in my life. And instead of being worried about how long its going to last I am going to just be glad that I have it now. I can't believe how great it feels to be with him and how amazing it feels when he calls me beautiful. I am really happy.
And I said "What is?"
And he said "Waking up next to a beautiful woman."
Well I think if I were more demure I would have blushed. I was certainly flattered. I hope these feelings will last for a while. I hope that it will still be so "cool."
But the cynic in me wonders if anything good can last.
I can't help it, everyone keeps telling me that I should stop overanalying things and just let go.
Whatever. Thats the harderst advice to follow for someone like me. I overanalyze everything.
But ok I will try. I have been trying and I will continue to do so.
I am happy. For once I have someone really special in my life. And instead of being worried about how long its going to last I am going to just be glad that I have it now. I can't believe how great it feels to be with him and how amazing it feels when he calls me beautiful. I am really happy.