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[arachne8x]

I am very pensive today.

I haven't written any poetry in ages. Its painful. I haven't made any jewelery either. I try to write because the urge comes and I can't I feel empty.

I hate this. Why can't I be back at the top of my game when the poems came to fast to write down.

Even making beaded jewelery by candle light was nice.

I wonder if it could be the relationship. Has anyone else ever felt this? Could it be that the energy I spend with my babe is the stuff I used to use to be creative?

Where did I go? I feel at times like I need more time to myself and when I have it I watch fucking movies for crying out loud.

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Careful

[lionlady.livejournal.com]

"I wonder if it could be the relationship. Has anyone else ever felt this? Could it be that the energy I spend with my babe is the stuff I used to use to be creative?"

Be cautious on blaming the relationship first for your problems. Going down that route could lead to resentment. This would turn a healthy realtionship into something unhealthy for both of you.

You've been going through alot of stuff lately - your thesis advisor, your knee, the move, TA work...all these things could also be what's adding up to "suck away" your creative energys.

Re: Careful

[arachne8x.livejournal.com]

Ok I didn't mean for it to sound like that. I don't mean to place blame on my great boyfriend. And you are right there probably are other reasons. I have felt kind of blah the last few weeks in general. But its not his or even our relationships fault. Its just kind of a malaise. I guess what I meant to say is that I used to spend lots of time alone. I would go places and do things by myself and I could hear my muse speak to me then.

I would rather spend the time with him, but there is less time for quiet contemplation.

Somehow I will find a way to balance this someday.