new poem full of angst

[arachne8x]

Oozing from every pore
Winding its way down my body
Every thing that made up
Me, I, myself
Flows down
Twirling rolls around
Until swirling
Its pulled down
Into the drain

Personality was flushed from me
And he filled me up
A perfect Stepford girlfriend
A lapdog begging at his heels

I have been there
This is my history

Does it surprise you then
That it scares me
To bare so much of me
And it seems unlikely
That I could be
Fully myself
While filling myself
So much at your tap

But here I am
Ready to jump
Taking that leap of faith
Wearing a parachute woven
Of my trust in you

A little gunshy
I’m staring the double barrels in the face
Knowing that this time the safety is on