arachne8x | sleep debt

My sleep debt must be really high. I swlept fine last night, much better than the last week. And I feel like total ass this morning. I wish I knew what was up.

Yesterday my shrink and I discussed the possibility of doing a formal sleep study on me this summer. This study would hopefully help us figure out if my insomnia is chemical, or mental or what. It would also help us determine what I can do to improve my "sleep hygiene."

The first step in trying to improve things was lsat night when my SO and I read before bed. I think it helped a lot. Tonight I am going to try to take 2 pills instead of one.

The next thing I must do is try to find my booklight that I bought. I haven't been able to find it since I reorganized my room which means I must have put it someplace that was "very clever" and will never find it again. I hope this is not actually true and I will find it Wednesday.

I feel kinda guilty. My SO does not have any issues like this that I have to deal with. He has some allergies and gets sick a lot but is not high-maintenance in the same way that I am. He is being really sweet though and is really trying to understand what I am going through. Last night he asked me really shocked if having insomnia was really like in the movie... I had to tell him that yes, it had never been quite that bad for me but it had been close.

Hopefully I can conquer this thing before the summer. Maybe being in a new program with more reasonable expectations will bring my stress level down. I don't know.

Right now I have plenty of stress: trying to finish a thesis that is not progressing well, dealing with my old advisor and having to fight for time with the post doc who is supposed to be helping me, studying for my final, and my roommate threatening to move out all stress me out a fair bit... but I think I will manage, because I have to. And working on improving my sleep is the first step in trying to solve my problems.

(BTW if anyone is broke Brigham and Womens is doing a sleep study of 9-10 days (shortest I have heard of) which will pay about 2000 bucks))