FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!
Dec. 9th, 2002 08:12 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
arachne8xSomeone stole my laptop. I left it in the office this weekend hooked up so it would run inversions. The door was locked. I guess I forgot to put the chain lock on it. And now its gone. The work is replaceable I guess but now I have no computer. I am beyond upset and don't know what to do. I am sobbing.
I keep thinking that there can't possibly be anything else that can go wrong... and life keeps on surprising me. I was always so careful to put the laptop lock on and the one time I don't it gets stolen from a locked building and a locked office on a Sunday.
And I don't have fucking renters insurance... or anything else that could help me right now.
I just want to crawl into bed and sleep until this bad feeling goes away. I feel so helpless and so alone.
I know its just a thing but its the most important thing I owned and now its gone... I know my folks will help me get a new one but that doesn't changed how horrible this feels.
I just want one month without a crisis, without a problem. I just want to be healthy and bored for a little while. Is that too much to ask?
I know that in comparison to my friends that have had deaths in their families recently this is nothing. But it doesn't feel like nothing... it feels like someone keeps opening up an old wound.
I called the SO and he tried to make me feel better but what can he do? What can I do but be brave and keep plugging away and stop feeling sorry for myself... I just don't know if I have the strength anymore.
I keep thinking that there can't possibly be anything else that can go wrong... and life keeps on surprising me. I was always so careful to put the laptop lock on and the one time I don't it gets stolen from a locked building and a locked office on a Sunday.
And I don't have fucking renters insurance... or anything else that could help me right now.
I just want to crawl into bed and sleep until this bad feeling goes away. I feel so helpless and so alone.
I know its just a thing but its the most important thing I owned and now its gone... I know my folks will help me get a new one but that doesn't changed how horrible this feels.
I just want one month without a crisis, without a problem. I just want to be healthy and bored for a little while. Is that too much to ask?
I know that in comparison to my friends that have had deaths in their families recently this is nothing. But it doesn't feel like nothing... it feels like someone keeps opening up an old wound.
I called the SO and he tried to make me feel better but what can he do? What can I do but be brave and keep plugging away and stop feeling sorry for myself... I just don't know if I have the strength anymore.
